Fading, Falling, Lost in Forever - A Sam Winchester Fanmix

[kajmere]

This is a Season 4 Sam Winchester Fanmix. All From Sams POV. Includes his relationship with Ruby, His Addiction, Withdraws, diminishing relationship with Dean, and hopefully a reconciliation.

Enjoy it









01. Pain Redefined - Disturbed (Sam trying to reason with his decisions)

Fading, falling, lost in forever
Will I find a way to keep it together?
Am I strong enough to last through the weather in the hurricane of my life?
Can it be a conscious decision?
That I look for ways to alter my vision?
Am I speeding towards another collision in the alleyways of my life?

Shaking, burning up with the fever
In the realm of pain, I am the deceiver
Now I lie to myself, so I can believe her
As she disassembles my life
I cannot dispell the illusion
All my hopes and dreams are drowned by confusion
Can I find a way to make a solution that will reconfigure my life?




02.Heart Failure - Sixx AM (the Addiction)


I've begun evaporating
Right before your eyes
I just keep regurgitating
My own demise

I miss today I miss the past
I miss my veins 'cause they've collapsed
A simple thought occurs to me

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And it's not derailing
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

As the blood is rushing
to my head
And from my wrists
I'm in love with all the things I know I should resist

And all the times you said to me
Your falling down ones destiny
A simple thought occurs to me



03. Revv 22:20 - Puscifer (Sam/Ruby)


Don't be aroused by my confession,
Unless you don't give a good goddamn about redemption
I know Christ is coming
But so am I
You would too if the sexy devil caught your eye
She'll suck you dry
But still you'll cry to get back in her bosom
To do it again
She'll make you weep
But the more you'll cry to be back in her bosom
And do it again

Jesus has risen to no surprise
Even he would martyr his momma to ride to hell between those thighs
Pressure is building at the base of my spine
If I've got to sin to see you again
Then I'm gonna lie lie lie
She'll make you cry
Please suck me dry

She'll lie lie lie



04. Sanitarium - Metallica (the Detox)


Welcome to where time stands still
No one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
Just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, no windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep, my friend, and you will see
That dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
Can't they see it's why my brain says "rage"

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Build my fear of what's out there
Cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
Assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
But violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
He's getting better, can't you tell?


No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
But they think this saves us from our hell

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Sanitarium

Just leave me alone

Fear of living on
Natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
Got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
kill is such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again



05. Orion (Interlude) - Metallica


Instrumental


06. New Divide - Linkin Park (Sam missing Dean)


remembered black skies
the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
as time began to blur
Like a startling sign
that fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
the distance in your eyes

Give me reason
to fill this hole
connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide



07. Undertaker - Pusifer [Sam / Ruby)


Thank you for making me
feel like I am guilty.
Making it... easy to...
murder your sweet memory.

You were way out of line,
went and turned it all around on me again.
How can I not smell your lie
through the smoke and arrogance?

But, now I know.
So, you will not get away with it again.
I'm distant in those hollow eyes
for I have reached my end.
So...

Thank you for making me
feel like I am guilty,
making it easy to murder your sweet memory.

Before I go, tell me...
Were you ever who you claimed yourself to be?

Either way I must say goodbye.
You're dead to me.
So I...



08. Permission - Sixx AM (Sam/Dean)


I apologize
That your memory serves you more than I can now
You'll have to make sense of my life somehow
Yeah, somehow

Well, I close my eyes
Remove each piece of armor one by one
Inhale this moment deep into my lungs
Make amends for all I've done

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal



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